Friday, December 04, 2009
HAI. I just saw... how things you left behind could move on so very well without you. And when I mean so very well, it is really well. HAHA. Kinda fit me anyway, it wasn't innate in me to stand in front of a group of mates and lead the team. And it is obvious, they survive so much better with this current group of, I say, successful people. I am envious =( And angry too, at myself mostly.NAH. I've decided, I shouldn't go back at all. So sorry, teacher. Even if I did, I would mostly probably just stand outside and listen. HUR. Too much of a coward to get in there to face anyone. Especially... yeap. Ahhhhhhs. I guess it's time for me to find an entirely new group then. Where no one knows me. Where I could just simply enjoy and immerse in my fav hobby =) (no PLANNING, no TROUBLES, no FEARS, no WORRIES and the list go on and on...)Well that's it. My life's pretty much back to the boring old life without the exams to stress me up and at least add some colour to it. I'm sure I am gonna rot soon, flesh dropping and stuff. LOL.
retreating into the cold @ 10:22 PM
Thursday, December 03, 2009
I know the arts and the physics peeps have long drowned themselves in celebrations and joys, but please allow me to declare...A LEVEL'S OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~ =DAs much as I am thrilled with the prospect of FREEDOM for 'bout 8 months, all the stressed and dejections of the exams had diluted some of it as to bug me. YES IT'S BUGGING ME. PFFFFT. This is seriously the worst exams I had ever taken. No one exam had gotten me so diffident, so panicky, or even lost sleep over for. The very first paper I had taken (the bloody GEOG) already set the standard - it's gonna be a tough journey. And indeed it has been.But of course, I survived, more or less in one piece. Special thanks to...
MY MUM. She's always there, sitting in this very chair, every bit giving me the sense of company and suppport =D
Well... my dad actually add more stress to my already stressed-out brain the day before my gp and bio paper by emphasising that I had THREE papers the next day and SHOULD SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP when I had so many UNREAD UNREAD UNREAD. zzz. But well, I just wanna show this photo. LOL. Oh and, I didn't forget you =) All the encouragement and poetic stuff, you are really good with words. HAHA.Alrighty. Finally a post, and I somehow feel odd typing one. Wonder what happened to all the drive in the past that had got me to blog post after post. HEH. This blog shall be alive once again =) ~
retreating into the cold @ 11:43 PM
Thursday, November 19, 2009
1) I just hope there's this much hoohaa about h1 geog too. At least I know I am not alone. 2) Waiting for one stupid email which everyone seems to receive feels like shit. 3) Weird. Nothing's moving at all.4) Funny how I find time to blog when the next paper is what I fail to pass in prelims -.-Right. Time to goo.
retreating into the cold @ 1:06 PM
Friday, November 13, 2009
WHAT CAN I SAY WHAT CAN I SAY WHAT CAN I SAY WHAT CAN I SAY?Why is it that everything I said cannot translate what i think?Is it so hard for me to do the RIGHT things at the RIGHT time and stop causing more and more and more misunderstanding?Seriously, is consoling even useful at all?I dont trust it anymore.From now on. I shut up and mind my shit.Because I dont trust my words anymore.I can do NOTHING.
retreating into the cold @ 10:03 PM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
The very first time, I have already said, what's the most important to me.I know I am being relentlessly selfish, but I have to do what's best for the important event in my life. I really hope to get your understanding. I don't mind spending time at meals, but on that issue, I cannot compromise. Please. Maybe it may take a toll on this, just like the song by taylor swift. Figure it out. Something you've found, something I've liked.Or perhaps, you would have regreted doing anything for me. Just so because I am so brutal.Sorry.
retreating into the cold @ 6:45 PM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
I've never found the number '2' scary. But now i do. Just 28 days more >.<.It don't help, when I always get home all lethargic for dunno whatever reasons, and occasionally fell asleep before I do what's to be done for the day. MAN. And seriously, my geog and gp ain't well prepared yet. neither is my dearest bio. AHHHHHS.I know I know, I know I have to be disciplined. Who cares whether you are stressed/sad/angry/frustrated/lost/whatever, you are still taking the bloody exams despite your emotions. And yes, I have no reasons to give myself any break. Especially when I am such a slowpoke sleeppoke >.<.Reality is cruel. The fittest survive. The mentally weak gets lag behind. And people just move on while you stayed at the same spot. And once your waning will gets in the way, that's it for your life. You lose hope. You rot and die. HAI. Pardon my rattling. Just need to get some air out. I feel like a rhyolitic volcanoe now. All those viscous magma vying to get out of the vents (okay, this is tempting me to get on), the fizzling gas trapped within the stubborn liquid building pressure up in the volcanoe until finally one day, 'BOOMZ' (LOL), I erupted. Lava spills out in a fiery fountain, but that's not all that's so hazardous. Look out for PYROCLASTIC FLOW and tephra fall. Once pyroclastic flow gets you, GG for you. MUAHAHHAHAHA. LOL. Moving at a rate of 200 km per hour (I can't remember the exact number, so I'll just crap a while here), at high temperature of 700 degree celsius (again, number may be wrong), the pyroclastic flow destroy ANYTHING in its path...Great, going haywire soon. hur.
retreating into the cold @ 5:16 PM
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I MUST BLOG THIS.LOL. Call me stubborn or what, my brother, father and I were discussing about "WHY DO WE YAWN?" and "Drinking Water to perks people up because it provides oxygen to the brain". Of course, my friends would know the first thing I'll do when I couldn't prove myself, IS TO DO RESEARCH. HUR.Well, from what I see, the mechanism behind yawning is still a big question mark (LOOK AT THIS LAO PA!). There's no fixed theory on why we yawn. And many people propose things like:1)Yes this is the famous one - because the oxygen level in our blood is low and carbon dioxide level is high, and that's why we stretch our mouth to take in more oxygen and get rid of the excess carbon dioxide. However, studies have been made that people with high level of oxygen in their blood still do yawn, and and the number of yawns we made before and after exercising is effectively the same. 2)A form of stretching and loosening our muscles. That's probably because we are feeling tired or bored, and our breathing gets slower, and so yawning can help increase blood pressure and stretch our muscles more, and we get more awake. (So if you stifle your yawns, it feels totally uncomfortable yeah?)3)Due to release of certain neurotransmitter in our brain that stimulates yawning. So probably if you take certain drugs while you are sick, it triggers release of the neurotransmitters and you would yawn more. 4)COOLING MECHANISM FOR THE BRAIN. HUR. I find this interesting. We took in the excess air to cool our brains when our brains get "overheated". LOL. And we yawn less when it's cold so the brain wouldn't get thermal shock (machiam electroporation seh. haha), and when it's too hot because taking in the hot air wouldn't do any good cooling our brains. 5)A vestigial instinct left behind from ancestors (EVOLUTION!!). Some people believe that a pack of animals yawn one by one to bare their teeth? So that while they sleep other animals wouldn't come kachiau them because they are so fearsome. LOL. Well. I don't know how true is this. Probably our ancestors do this too, and probably explained why when we see others yawn, we yawn too. xD6)I saw this on tv too. That we yawn when we saw others yawn as our brain "empathise" with theirs, and it applies when we saw pictures of people yawning or try to read an article on yawning. HUR. Interestinggg.That's what I found from the webbies. HEH.Conclusion: No fixed theory found yet. But I find those theories logical though. HUR. So LAO PA! Don't say I fix mind seh. About the taking in water (and the O supplies more oxygen to our brain) =/ I don't know seh. HUR. ASK DR GAN!! Kays. I found out that I am wasting time here. HUR.
retreating into the cold @ 6:52 PM
